I'm having another sleepless night. I'm tired of being in this limbo and want to move on quickly. When I look back over the year and a half since BD I can't believe some of the things that were said and done. I wish I would have had the strength early on to deal with xh differently. I don't believe it would have changed the outcome, but I would have had better control of my life. Living with so much fear and insecurity has been detrimental.
Xh should know of my plan to move in the morning. Either he will be shaken up a bit or just glad that I've agreed to sell and he'll receive the money he wants. He was completely delusional if he thought he was going to force me out of my home, but expect me to pay exorbitant rent just so he could have minimal visitation with the boys. I tried since BD to keep the boys in their home and xh wavered back and worth and caused deep anxiety in all three of us. It's terrible not knowing where you're going to live. I won't put the boys through that for another school year. They've suffered enough.
