The sad part is that she hates the idea of getting a divorce too. Why can't she see that I can't live like this?
She says these men are just friends. I would be a complete fool to believe that. She wants to know what she can do to stay married?
I have no idea. I need a real wife and I need to be loved. I know there is no other answer but divorce, but I can't stop thinking that I am making a mistake and should just give her more time to work through this.
I wish she would just move out. Then life would be bearable, and I could give her the time and space she needs. But, she won't move out, so here we are.
At least the process is moving forward. I can wallow in my indecision and second guessing all night, but it doesn't stop the process from moving forward. I just need to accept this decision and resolve to let the process move forward. I want this to be over.
