Has Christine graduated to piecing?

[ChristineE]

Thanks Merrick and Karen for stopping by to lend your support. It's good to see some of the veterans in this forum.

My sitch seems to be in neutral right now. It is making me very nervous. H is being very pleasant to me, but his depression has kicked in again in a big way. He has not wanted to ML or do any other intimate activities. He seems to be all out of energy and he does not seem happy at all. I'm just so afraid that he is going to blame me for his dysphoria again and decide to leave.

There was one incident today where I realized that I really have changed. I picked up some Chinese take-out on the way home and H was already there waiting for me. We had this interaction:
H: "What did you get for me?
Me: "Kung Pao chicken".
H: "Did you tell them to put extra chicken?"
Me: "No, I didn't know that was an option."
H: (Sounding annoyed) "I always get extra chicken for $2! You should have known that's what I wanted!"
Me: "Well, since you're mad at me I guess I'm not getting a hello hug."
I then excused myself and went to the bathroom. I immediately realized that I was getting that "old" feeling in my intestines. That old feeling that I felt hurt and how dare he treat me this way? Why can't he acknowledge that I went out of my way to get us food? I immediately went back into the kitchen and put on a big smile and said that I was glad to see him. I wasn't going to fall into the old trap of getting upset and expressing to him how misunderstood I felt. I just let him be cranky and didn't take it personally from that point forward. He soon after came up to me and gave me a hug. Thank you DB!

We are going to Phoenix tomorrow to attend my son's graduation from a private university in AZ. H seems mildly excited and genuinely happy for my S. Perhaps being in a hotel and having some time away from home might relieve some stress. I hope it's a fun getaway. Any suggestion on spicing up the weekend would be welcomed!

Christine