Thanks for your encouragement RW. I'm glad you had a good Valentine's Day too.

I'm starting to realize that, even though I saved my M, my H is still in a terrible way. The depression keeps rearing its ugly head (or maybe bipolar illness) and I don't want to push him to talk to our friend again (psychiatrist). I think he would resist anyway. H says that he feels as if his energy is gone again (this is why I'm suspecting bipolar). He used to work out every day and have a lot of energy and now he is taking naps and sleeping more. I wonder too how this all correlates to the bomb and the A. He was depressed like this pre-bomb and I am so frightened that it's going to happen again.

I need to shift gears now. I need to learn how to translate my successful DB to creating a M that endures. I am so afraid now that he will become bored with me and another A will happen. He is in a weird funk and hasn't wanted to ML since Valentine's weekend. On the other hand, I can see that he is conciously trying to compliment me and express his gratitude for the things that I do. He is being very nice and very loving.

I guess I need to continue to spice things up around the house. Maybe I'll wrap myself in celophane and great him at the door! At least I'll have some fun and maybe he'll come out of his funk. I wish he would reconsider his friend Lexapro again.

I feel that these are the early weeks of piecing and I am so afraid that I will accidentally do something wrong. Are there things that I need to watch out for? ARe there potential hazards that I don't realize? I would love to hear from anyone who has been down this road already.

Christine

I am the master of creating positive energy and love in my own environment. I am the source of love in my life. It starts with me! This energy radiates from me! It gives me strength, courage, wisdom and grace!