I've felt better, Tori, ever since reading your take on some of my points. I love the way you reframe things. Thank you very much.
Yes, I am choosing to stand/DB as best I can for now. I'm not a victim.
H called (after the time he'd said he'd be back for supper) to ask if it was OK for him to go out for a curry with some colleagues. I said, "yes, sure, but will you be back in time for us to watch Spiral?" In retrospect, that was a bit clingy of me. It would be fine if we didn't watch our current series it tonight. In fact, I'm pretty sure he will be back too late. He did apologise for calling late. I could even watch it without him if I really wanted to but I'm a bit scared to start doing one of the few things we do together on my own. We could end up spending even less time together.
Thank you for the hugs!
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012