I was out of town for three weeks (with a couple of wonderful days in between) and now I'm on track for my piecing adventures. I had the best Valentine's Day that I have ever had in my life! My H seems to be in love with me and he can't seem to get enough. He went with me to Victoria's Secret on VDay and picked out an outfit for the evening and made crab legs for dinner. I still want someone to pinch me that this is real!
My challenge now is to stop freaking out (internally) about this not being permanent. I still feel that I am walking on eggshells. I feel that one false move and things will revert back to the way they were. Is this what others have felt at first?
My H has not made any commitments and maybe he never will. I'm not going to bring up the topic so I guess I will just enjoy what I have for the moment. I so much want to ask him why he wanted a D, why he had an A, why he was so mean and nasty to me, but I guess some things are best left unsaid. He doesn't even know that I knew about the A. I just pray that I can DB for the rest of my life and never give him reason to stray again. One thing that I've learned is to never take anything for granted.
I know that I'm not finished DBing. I have just entered another chapter in my Db life. Maybe one day I'll feel more confident that my H really is not going to leave me. For now, he still will not see me sweat. I will be the confident and unconditionally loving person that got me here today. I think I like the new me and I can only get better!
Christine
Last edited by ChristineE; 02/16/0405:43 PM.
I am the master of creating positive energy and love in my own environment. I am the source of love in my life. It starts with me! This energy radiates from me! It gives me strength, courage, wisdom and grace!
