Has Christine graduated to piecing?

[ChristineE]

I don't know how to interpret anything here. Please anyone who has been down this road, I would greatly appreciate some input. First, if I don't make any sense, it is because I am exhausted from traveling and all the activities that H and I have done this evening.

I have arrived back home after being away for 10 days. My H seemed really glad to see me. As soon as we got home, he started being playfully naughty and I ended up disciplining him and then he wanted to ML. We haven't done that since June 15. I was flying high. I was thinking that this is the turning point. Things are back to normal. During his discipline, H admitted that he had been foolish in the way he was behaving and he sincerely apologized for the last 3 months. This was all great and after we ML, he wanted to sing some Karaoke songs.

We were singing some songs and I mentioned that we should take some of the Karaoke CDs to my parents house when we go over there for my S21's graduation (graduating from college). He hesitated and said that he wasn't sure if he was going. I was very puzzled by this comment and during his next song, I thought about the sitch. I decided to bring a belt into the room and I told him that he was in trouble again. He asked why and I said that I didn't understand why he was hesitating about my S's graduation. He was confused as to the date (Feb. 28) so I clarified. he said, "OH, ok since it is this month, I guess I'll go." I asked why it mattered what month and he replied, "because, if it were in a couple of months, I probably wouldn't go due to matters that we have already discussed." What the F---? Sorry, I usually don't swear!

I immediately went into my Db mode but I think that I was a little quiet (not too much). He asked me if there was something wrong with me and I just acted "as if". He then sang several love songs and said that they were for me. Then he smoked in the house (a new habit for him) and afterwards, I took him back to the bedroom and disciplined him for smoking. He was cooperative and afterwards said that he loved me, but he wanted to sleep alone. He said that Friday I could sleep with him.

Also, I notice on his pager that he has been paged by OW and previous OW (from before we got married). On the home phone redial there is a number for a telephone dating line. This is crazy! He ML, which is such a major step for him. He didn't even want to do that on our "honeymoon" last November. At first he said that he didn't feel comfortable with it because the R had to "feel right" and then he said that he wasn't sexually attracted to me. So tonight seemd like a majot breakthrough. I don't understand why he alluded to S in a couple of months. I wish I didn't have to leave again on Sunday. I feel as though everything is slipping through my fingers and I can't Db because I won't be here.

Does anyone understand this?

Christine