Thanks Jerry, Mary, Bill, Sage, Lights and Ellie for coming to vistit me here on my new thread in piecing. I am still away from home and I am soooooo exhausted and it is hard to stay connected to my friends here on the board.
Lights, you really made me laugh! Yes, I think that the love radiation therapy has caused H's tumor to go into remission. He is still really nice and flirtatious on the phone. I still can't believe it. I think somebody needs to pinch me! To answer your question, H's fetish (believe it or not) has helped me with accepting and responding to his admission of insanity. It was during a telephone disciplinary role-play that this all occured. I don't know how this could be helpful to others except to say that maybe we just need to lighten up. I know that this is a serious issue and someday I would like to tell H that the day of the bomb was equivalent to the day my son was in a terrible car accident and ended up in ICU.
I was talking to a male friend/colleague of mine last night. I told him a little bit about my sitch and he said that my traveling was virtually pushing him towards OW. Now I'm starting to feel really anxious about my current traveling. Things seem to be going well so far, but it is hard to guage since my interactions are only by phone. I will be going home tomorrow for 3 days, then our company has a week-long national meeting in Orlando. I really have to do soemthing different when I get home so this won't feel like more of the same. In the past, I would feel so tired when I returned home and I usually would get take-out food for us and I would sleep in the next day. He often would say that we were "out of synch" with each other. I plan to get up early and make him a breakfast burrito no matter how tired I feel. I think that these little things have made a big impact on him. I really hope that it is different this time even though it feels like the same old scenario. I guess this is my opportunity to show him that things really are different and that the traveling will soon be over for good.
I have to remember all the things that I have learned Dbing. Patience, listen, don't talk too much, smile, be positive, don't complain and all the other DB strategies that have gotten me where I am.
Christine
I am the master of creating positive energy and love in my own environment. I am the source of love in my life. It starts with me! This energy radiates from me! It gives me strength, courage, wisdom and grace!
Yes, I think that the love radiation therapy has caused H's tumor to go into remission. He is still really nice and flirtatious on the phone. I still can't believe it. I think somebody needs to pinch me! To answer your question, H's fetish (believe it or not) has helped me with accepting and responding to his admission of insanity. It was during a telephone disciplinary role-play that this all occured. I don't know how this could be helpful to others except to say that maybe we just need to lighten up. I know that this is a serious issue and someday I would like to tell H that the day of the bomb was equivalent to the day my son was in a terrible car accident and ended up in ICU.
