I feel like I need to shift my focus away from trying to get my house and just agree to sell it and move away. My life here isn't what I want and isn't manageable. Moving solves just about all of the issues and I will be near my best friend who has been my biggest supporter. She will actually be here this weekend and then the boys and I will stay with her family in a few weeks.
What I've been fighting for doesn't seem to be in my best interest. Xh keeps making me jump hurdles.
I know that home is where the boys and I make it. It will take a lot of courage and a leap of faith, but I know I am capable of creating a new life. There are just too many bad memories here. I also don't want to have to deal with xh on an ongoing basis. My reaction to him says it all.
B, the meds seemed to be working fine until I started receiving all of the emails. I think it's the sign I needed that no matter what I do this situation will not work. It's time to move on.
