I'm so excited! H called me at my hotel and during the conversation he said, "for one month". Let me back up. since Nov, he has constantly reminded me that he was leaving after the holidays. In Jan, he announced that he had plans to move in Feb. It is now Feb 1 and he is discussing things that he wants to do together during this month.

More specifically, H wants to quit smoking. He has never been a smoker in the 8 years that I have known him, but suddenly, during our "crisis" he has become a smoker. Go figure. This morning he asked me to help him quit. He says that he wants to limit his smoking at home in the evening to 1 cigarette and it must be outside. He said that he needs strict supervision on this and he will gladly suffer any consequences if he doesn't adhere to these rules. He says that he wants to smoke only 2 cigarettes at work and one in the evening. He wants me to help him with this for 1 month, then he will cut back even more. When he said the words "one month" I almost fell over! It sure doesn't seem like he is planning to leave any time soon.

During this same conversation, he said some very revealing things. He said that he has been disrespectful to me and that he has been acting like an adolescent with his tantrums and rude behavior. He said that I need to put my foot down and not tolerate this in our house. He said that he wants to show me respect and that he has been negligent. I was silently crying on the phone. He was talking as if he loves me again. This is all just so crazy. Is this the same man that said that he has never been attracted to me? Is this the same man that said that our M was a mistake? He said that it would take a miracle for him to feel differently about me because he didn't think that those feelings ever really existed. I NOW BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!!

I'm definitely in piecing! Thank you to everyone who has helped me get here!!!

Christine


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