I think your thoughts are normal. A LBSer goes through the gambit.. and there's just no way around it.
IMO - In the beginning of this realization.. you do end up attaching negative motives behind phrases such as.
" I've grown she hasn't" "I'm so glad I don't have to put up with x or y"
And then your following actions are negative because your heart IS looking for fault and displacing hurt.
BUT Once the pain subsides, your heart changes a little bit and these thoughts will have a different motive. This doesn't happen until detachment and until some healing has taken place.
Either way... thoughts like these usually propel us forward. Just make sure it's propelling you forward to the person you want to become.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
