Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

Whatisis,
I have no idea. Stupidity. I think i'm just going to deactivate my account.

I am struggling with the fact that my kids do not know the reason why we are divorcing. I cannot let my kids grow up thinking that our marriage just stopped working, when she cheated on me multiple times. I want them to know the truth but without causing conflict between stbx and myself. This situation is so convoluted that i do not see a clear path. I was watching a video on Divorce Recovery and one of the main people on the video said it can take up to 5 years to get over a divorce. I'm sure this isn't completely true of all cases but I don't want to feel the pain I am feeling for that long. My roller coaster has slowed down but I see her and it speeds back up. I do not want to feel this pain any more.