What do I do?

[stilllookingup]

Hi,

I've just read through your thread and I actually feel the same way lovethehub did.

What are you doing in the way of 180's, GAL and personal growth? I do hear a couple of positive statements in there but I also read the above post and feel like your are missing the point of this..please don't, it is very important.

I've seen at least 5-10 times on your thread this. "He gets grumpy if I don't"
He was grumpy because you didn't wish him happy birthday first thing in the morning? And you actually sounded guilty for that. That to me you are still making yourself too available for him. He should feel sad that you didn't. He should really feel how it'd be like not having you around or wishing him happy birthday.

I didn't see anywhere how you had been in your m. Were there things you think you contributed to his leaving? Or do you think he left solely because he was confused about his life.

Also you said your in laws live next door and watch you if I read it correctly?!? Why are you allowing that?

PS I just saw your new thread but its the best here if you keep your switch on one thread and create another when the existing thread is full so its easier for people to keep following and remembering your story Or link this thread to your new thread.