Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

Cycles down. Another night of attitude. He attended my work baby shower as a surprise and I really thought the right thing to so was tell him how much I appreciated his presence (he is quite busy at work). I said that he gives me stone cold silence. This is in between his awkward demanding in order navy ble everything (car seat, stroller) for the baby and awkward silence. Then he huffs and puffs bc he thinks that in packing (did I tell you I'm picking our condo up to be vacated in a month) I misplaced a CD cover for a work video. I didnt. Then the lat straw for him was that I let the household run out of toothpaste. So of course I react ( hard not to when it's been all night ) and tell him what a jerk he is. Right now I'm string ready to go to the 24 hour Walmart to get toothpaste. Bc I'm such a bad woman, wife and mother to be for letting us run out of essentials. Well he says I don't have to and that I'm making things worse and i could get into a car accident (I presume bc in upset). I retorted " I'm not the one with a moving violation". So back to square one kind of. What should have been a decent day with his attendance at shower is ruined. I let him get the best of me. And the only thing I'm doing differently is I didn't raise my voice too much and I'm leaving so I don't stay and continue to be upset. I paused to write this bc my mother told me never to drive upset. Cycle down. I lost. I guess if I was truly DB properly I wouldn't have told him how much his presence at the shower meant to me? Bc obviously he just did it bc my coworkers asked and he probably wanted to spare me the embarrassment of him saying no. Ugh. Anyway.