"I feel more optimistic now."

Don't. And what I mean by that is that everytime YOU get a hint of optimism it seems like you overdo it. You haven't taken the time to detach yet and learn. Do that first.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER