Stuck between a rock and a hard place!

[dorightman]

Just finished another conversation with W. Much better ending.
She's moving out because the apt deal she's getting is very good and less then if I moved out.
We talked through everything, she expressed her lack of trust in me. We talked about why she felt unsafe in the past, and how she feels safe now.
We talked about how my reactions were extreme in the past and why.
We talked about when she's moving out, what she wants to take from the house.
We talked about our different perspectives on what happened in the past, we talked about going to mediation, being fair with each other.
We talked about our money issues from the past and how we both want to change that.
I ended the conversation by telling her I'm sorry for the ways I've hurt her in the past and that all I want to do is resolve our issues and be friends, that I love her and I want her to be happy and that I hope in the future she will see what an awesome guy I'am and will want me back because i love her and I want her back.

She said that a new friendship is the beginning of a foundation for us to move forward and that she would be an awesome friend. She started crying and said that she has been waiting so long for me to talk like this to her and we both hugged and cried.

I feel more optimistic now.