Thanks...I suppose to add a little more detail...he says primary is financial and in many ways it is for me as well. I lost my job last year and have been unable to find anything permanent since. Even with the retirement I receive from him after the first divorce it isn't enough to sustain my daughter and I. It is what it is.
Can't remember if I mentioned that hubby also got a DWI recently which if convicted could affect his job...gotta do the right thing sometimes even if it hurts...
He also says that he hopes that somehow something changes between us...I could make a few sarcastic remarks here because I am still very much in my own angry stage not just at him but at myself but it's really not worth validating it anymore than I have right now...another it is what it is.
I guess my primary frustration at this point lies in a discussion we recently had about expectations of the other if we are going to be living under the same roof. We have a 17 y/o D who has been impacted negatively by our garbage in the past and I would prefer things be as peaceful as possible.
I have past experience (forgiven, not forgotten) what it means when the man I am married to says "I do love you in some ways but I am just mad at you right now, just give it time, no, there's no one else, can I just have some privacy?"
Those truths always came out...long after I quit looking...
What is frustrating is that he has made it perfectly clear that he has no intention of working on even basic principles of trust but does not seem to accept that I accept it and I really don't need him rubbing my nose in his desire for "privacy", he should just STFU and do what he is going to and stop acting like I have a say in the matter...like I ever did... I also don't feel the need to hear the BS like I did today when he stopped by to pick up a few things...all smiley "cause he is happy to see me"...yeah sure especially since he just got back from a "secret" weekend get away...UGHHHH!!!!
I really don't have the patience for the "pick me dance" whether I love him or not...detaching seems a little tougher under the circumstances cause I just want to slap his silly you know what...I have no interest in reconciling with him at this point...after all the emotional BS of the last few months I don't even know if it's worth it anymore but I am trying to consider that I may be feeling that way because of the negativity right now...Thanks for responding.
