lost and alone now

[kelela]

I'm sorry to hear about what happened in your situation. I'm having another sad day H just came home to take shower after he got back from the gym then right after that he is gone again. In a way I can't wait for him to move out cause every time I see him it just makes me sad that he is leaving our family and solo I will be on my own with my boys. And you are roght maybe he shouldn't have them every weekend cause I know for a fact that he is not emotionally here for the boys at all. And this really breaks my heart to see him just think about himself and OW when he has two boys that would like to spend time with their dad. And he really doesn't say to much to me any more. Yes you are right I don't go to church but I do believe that there is a heavenly father that do excess. But I'm not ready to attend any church I believe that as long as I believe in the heavenly father I don't see why I need to attend a church to believe in him. And I know they he only gives you what you need u need life. I had asked many times to help.me save this marriage and I haven't got an answer back so I believe my marriage is not ment to be saved. I don't know if I can be strong anymore. I just miss H so much this is going to be the hardest thing that I have to go through and I'm not strong enough for this anymore. I just want my marriage back