One month down, zero casualties

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I think we usually know when something is up Raine. But I think what is key is the phone message that he didn't know you heard. This latest conversation still points to a lot of confusion in him.

Yes you see he messed up about the camping trip but he is not likely to see if for a while, if ever. They seem to come up with crazy reasons why they make sense. It doesn't make sense to anyone but them but they're the ones that are right. My h blames me for his A. Even told the kids this. They said, "huh?"

At least it seems like he is starting to see the light and he may be afraid of losing you. A good start. Who said one step forward and two steps back? I have to keep reminding myself that. I need to practice what I preach!

I know what you mean Raine, I'm really tired too. I'm exhausted. I keep telling myself I'm doing this for my kids. I want them to know I gave it everything. And, I'm doing it for us because I want him to see when he makes it through, hopefully, that I didn't give up. That's why we keep holding.

Keep being the good person that you are! You're doing fantastic!