I want him to be happy

[stilllookingup]

Hello kingdl and sorry I missed this post! Don’t think I got a notification.

I’ve been commenting on other people’s sitches lately I was abandoning my sitch as nothing major was happening until yesterday.

From the beginning of our relationship when we started talking about marriage, I could tell he was scared. We even broke up once because she didn’t think he could do it. Later on after we reconciled and got married, he confessed that when we were talking about m, he looked around in his dirty room in an apartment he was renting with two other guys and was convinced he couldn’t possibly support me. I was very optimistic (which is rare considering I was very cynical about everything) and couldn’t understand why he was feeling that way. Now with our sitch I’m sure he’s having the same feelings he first had and he might be even thinking “see what happened to our m, I shouldn’t have married”

I’ll update my sitch later.
I’ve been encouraging other fellow WAS lately but when it comes to my own sitch it is so hard to get myself encouraged. I cried hysterically in my parked car in my garage yesterday, which hadn’t happened for the last few months.

I have to interview many people today at work and I had to sneak out to the bathroom few times today to cry between interviews.