lost and alone now

[kelela]

Thank you my friend for checking up on me I'm doing little better today. H and I had our discussion last night about what I will be responsible for from September and on. That was not an easy discussion to do but it needed to be down since in couple of weeks he is moving out. I'm still hoping and praying that one day he will return to our family I'm still not ready to give up on us. I know it could be at least a year or so but who knows maybe down the road I will be able to move on as he did but as of right now I'm not ready to let go of this fight to get my family back. After he moves out I'm planning to stop all communications with H unless its about the boys. I know its going to be super hard but I will have to do it. I'll keep posting now and then I just need sometime on my own for a little while. One good thing I kinda of stop crying every night. I'm still sad and heart broken about my marriage but its time to try to let go now. Once again thank you my friend I will keep in touch as much as I can and keep you posted. I'll keep checking back once a day to see how is everyone doing and to update my situation when new things come around.