"Is it odd that I am not angry with him? Every once in a whild a little anger will pop up but 95% of the time I am neutral/normal w/ my feelings towards him..."
Odd? Not at all. I don't know what stage you are in but there is a numb period and then there is the point where you come to accept what is happening.
You have to know that there is large pieces of this journey you are on that are out of your control. That was probably the hardest part for me to get into my feeble little man brain.
Detaching was not as hard for as I thought it was going to be. Not sure if it was because I had other issues I needed to work on or what.
All I know, for me, is that my life is getting to a place I want it to be. I know I am going to make it whether or not my W wants to come along for the ride.
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out” ― Art Linkletter