I just wanted to quickly post here and will catch up with everyone's threads shortly.
B - no worries about laughing! It is the absolute truth. One of the last times we spoke, he actually called me at work - and I didn't immediately recognize his voice. Whoops! Next BF better have some kind of sexy accent.
Bright, I know what you are saying. And I remember you were without contact for some time. I also know how it feels when people point out that contact is positive - in my case it was positive that he responded, because later he even stopped responding. But I know how it feels when even though the action (contacting) is positive, it does not feel positive to you.
Linda, thank you so much for your kind words and unfailing optimism! I do not honestly believe that he will return and I do not expect to hear from him. Certainly, I have no desire to contact him. I am just not willing to put myself out there for him to further hurt me. Detachment comes in different ways for all of us. But he has vanished out of my life and has ignored the contact attempt by me; meanwhile my life remains in high gear - my other parent went into Hospital this weekend for something serious but not life threatening - and once again, I am coping alone. And I am OK. No urge to even call him. What for? When my parent was in Hospice and her time was drawing near, there was no word from him then. The sad truth is that in the most difficult times of my life, he simply has not been there for me.
So, I care a little less every day that goes by that he is not in my life.
MizJ - yes, my peace is being preserved. Not to say I don't have my angry moments and some sad ones. After all, I still believe we could have had a good future together. But that was with the guy I thought I knew. I don't know the person he is now. Our past is no longer enough to trump his present actions. I have even started to put away the bits at the apartment. I do not intend to send them to him; whatever I am not keeping, I will donate or throw out. There isn't much anyway. I cleaned my stuff out of his apartment at BD. So glad that I did.
