Circles no more

[shouldistillhope]

I really didn't have any choice in the matter. W met with lawyers originally, she filed for the D and she took care of everything. At that point, there was nothing for me to do. I can't refuse to sign paperwork, the D will be granted no matter how much i refuse to do anything. There is only a 60 day waiting period from the point of filing and D being final with no separation involved.

I felt that there was really no way for me to let go of the rope by refusing to sign any paperwork and trying to prolong anything would just be perceived as me being controlling.

It now comes down to this. She will either find happiness without me in her life, and she will then think that D was truly the best decision for her to make, or she will second guess her decision at some point and when that time comes, I will have either moved on, or maybe at that point we can see what the future holds for us.

If I decide that i am at a different place in my life when or if that time comes, i will deal with it then.

It only takes one person to divorce their spouse. Seems too easy these days for it to happen.