Oh look, this roller coaster has loops...

After not replying to my H's email about seeing me at an event 2 nights ago he texted me late last night to ask if I had seen him.

Then out of the blue he texted to say he feels bad about not being around ( for my kids), feels bad about our son ( due in August), and about things between us. He also said it felt 'weird' being there with me and the kids around without being there with us.

After 2 months of getting almost nothing from him, good or bad, that was a lot to hear. I won't pretend my hopes aren't way up at the moment, but I'm reminding myself that its going to take time and a lot more than just guilty feelings to move past this. My plan remains the same, focus on doing my own thing and leaving the ball in his court if he wants to do something to get our M back on track.


BD: Aug 2012
Separated since May 2013
S born Aug 2013
Aug 2013 H agrees to consider 'baby steps toward working things out'
H is/was actively seeing someone?