He has no legitimate complaints. Every single time I ask him he tells me it's all him, not me. He won't tell me anything.
I have started going to church, running, going out with friends, going to divorce support groups.
I have done a pretty good job of detaching...I've stopped all emails, texts and phone calls. I've told him to take his space, he said he appreciates it. I do OK when I don't hear from him. I feel stronger and don't cry. But every interaction with him leaves me in tears and I don't know how to get past that. This is all still very raw and unexpected. And we have 3 kids so I have to interact with him...it just feels like another rejection every time he takes the kids and leaves me behind. Mostly I don't cry in front of him...but I'll admit this last week or so has been rough with him taking the kids overnight for the first time.
I know filing doesn't mean it's over...he says the same thing, all the time. I just mean that if he lets the divorce become final it's over for me. I will not remain in limbo after the divorce is finalized. I've got to start healing at some point. Limbo is leaving the wound wide open, just like my therapist says.
