GM, you can make yourself crazy trying to figure him out when he can't even figure himself out. In time you'll have the answers you're looking for, but it could be a very long time. Very.
I'm sorry for your loss, but there's two ways to look at it: the way you want it to be or the way it is. You'll always have those memories. They are yours to keep.
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."