Stuck between a rock and a hard place!

[planet]

"I just get confused because the DB method really doesn't seem authentic to me. If I were always to take the DB route, I would be acting and not being who I'am, even the better me."

You will not become the complete opposite of yourself. That'll frighten off even your mom. haha.
think of it as dorightman version 2.0. A refined person with some added features.
wise man once said: keep doing what is needed and eventually it becomes a habit. that i guess will feel natural over time.