Stuck between a rock and a hard place!

[dorightman]

I have to keep reminding myself that I can't control others. you're right.

She served me in Feb. because I was having a hard time controlling my emotions and she couldn't take it. She kept saying I was emotionally unstable when I was just reacting like any normal human being who is being treated un lovingly by their S. I know what she feels is what matters here, not what I feel.

You don't have to sign but is that getting you closer to your goal?
Sometimes we have to love our S enough to let them go.


I keep hoping that with time and space and my changes, she will turn around and eventually just drop the D. I have a year left before the court honors it.

I know "if we love someone, we must set them free." I struggle with this because I also know that the freedom she perceives is on the other side is a mirage. Freedom is internal. It's our own perception.
I know it's not for me to teach her that or to tell her that.