" Not what I want, but happy to be with my family "together".

Stop talking about what YOU want. You haven't stopped doing that even though you keep saying that you are going to what your W wants for a change.

"I explained to my w that I understood why she felt like she wanted a D last night."

I hate to ask but I'm sure that wasn't all that was discussed. How did it come up and what was discussed?

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER