I so agree,looking forward to the healing and this not consuming me. No matter how busy I keep myself I'm still coming home to an empty house and say to myself "is this the way my life is going to be?
Feeling that it will be like this forever can be a symptom of (very understandable) depression. I remember so well thinking I would feel wretched FOREVER, which made it worse!!
But life has lots of twists and turns and wonderful surprises.
During my xh's MLC I have had so much fun. At first, and for a long time, I faked it, and then I didn't need to.
Most important I have learned to be alone, and re-found who i am. Re-finding joy takes a long time, but you get there.
Do I wish it had happened, of course not, but a lot of good things have happened while my xh has been in crazyland. And I am soooooooo glad I am not there with him.
