Questions without answers...am I stuck in place?

[albamarie]

Well, I spent the whole day trying to GAL, spent time w my S22 as he built a computer, ordered food, and tried w all my might not to get pissed off, and to remember, H is not worth my sadness, what would he be doing here anyways, nothing w me.

H called at 3pm from POS hospital, I was hoping she died in surgery. I asked him again why is he there, he said he met her, he has to see this through, plus the city doesn't offer rides home from the hospital like in our nice cushy community suburb. I said I thought you hate her, he said, I do at times, but this isn't about liking her or not.

He said do you want me to come home, I said one day you will come home just in time for me to say, good-by...it's been interesting, he hummed at me. I said I will do what I do, and find more things new in my life while your gone, you won't know me, and you do what you do.

He stayed quiet. He said, S22 asked to work a different stage than me for work, I said yes, what do you expect, your not gaining any points here. He said I'm not doing anything bad, S22 said it's wrong if your family disagrees w what your doing, and your W is against it.

And, w grand-baby 8/24, on the way it's just another person he's going to sacrifice, for his journey.

Now tomorrow he'll walk in from work "as if" polite and helpful, and I will be walking out the door. My dog, aka I, have a court date for running away...and then breakfast, and then the mall for some perfume refills, then over to Honda for some break lights, and whatever else.

I am so over this sh!t, I wish he would move out.