MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

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Just journaling. Been reading PowerOfNow posts. I feel like I know him now. I keep reading and reading. Like a good book I can't put down. I want to know what happens.

All the advise is out there on the table. It's amazing how peoples lives can mirror others.

I have taken a whole new look at my sitch. Honestly, I can say that I have more understanding why he left, but then I think he was the LBS and I DID come around full circle within months not years! The accident definitely through me out of MLC yet I never asked to leave or said I was unhappy, IDLYA, etc. But he being the LBS then changed and wouldn't come back.

Will he? I think he liked the changes he made to himself. But at the same time OW came into his life. She was there all along and sorta put herself out there availble to him. Anyway, I don't blame her, never have.

Just thinking out loud. I return home next weekend with my D for small trip home to visit relatives and my D to be with friends she's been missing.

So much has happened over 4th July weekend with XH. I don't want to get into it yet. But I tried not to let it ruin my visit with my sister. Had a breakdown, always do with her. She just can't get over that I still cry and hurt. Detachment. Yes.

I find myself saying "I'm ok. I'm free now. WHO CARES what he's doing or planning or who with..." Feeling better already. I hope the trip home doesn't trip me up. I know he'll be around for my D. I just stay away. I have plans of my own with friends.

Anyway, any thoughts fill me in.