I do know exactly what you mean, Linda. It is hard to remember what once was and to think it might not ever be again.
The thing of it is, that no matter what happens, your old marriage is gone. But that doesnt mean that a new, stronger marriage isnt possible in the future. There is always that hope.
That's why I always say to put your marriage and the memories safely in a box. No one can take them away from you.
The Isle of Wright sounds glorious. So very happy for you. Really and truly.
My xh and I talked about all the travels we were going to do. And sometimes I get sad because I dont think I will ever be in a position financially to do much of it. And that is one of the things I love most in the world, seeing other places. But then I think, there is always hope.