The conversation where I tried to get H to leave with RT occurred the day he gave me BD #2, April 12 2013. I had forgotten about this site during his period of sanity, and was definitely NOT DBing. In fact I did everything as badly as I did back at DB#1 on Jan 9 2010. I was so broken hearted Beatrice, but honestly wanted him to be happy. I was such an idiot, instead of just letting it go, I actually tried to find a way for him to make his "dream" come true. Such a dope.
[color:#3333FF]My friend, you are so hard on yourself. You did the best you could with the knowledge and tools you had at the time. Now you know better, so you are doing better.
This is such tough stuff, Linda and we love so deeply. Letting go also means letting go of the past, so that you can move forward in the future.
Who knows what will happen on this trip or even if the trip will happen? And you are wasting valuable time thinking about it instead of working on you, sweetie. You have a wonderful trip planned. Start researching places you'd like to go. Go buy some new clothes.
And it doesnt hurt for him to see you excited, ya know? wink
I know how hard and hurtful it is to be in the same house with them and treated as if you are the hired help. It succcks, big time. Eventually, you will start to get to a place where you are just living your life without regard to what he is doing or not doing.
To help me get there, I used to practice. I did. I would say to myself, when I go in the house, if he is there in his freakin chair, I am walking in and going to do my thing. I would challenge myself to do it in a way that showed I am living my life, mista, and you are missing out. LOL!
Know what happened for me? I really began to believe it. He was missing out, because I was awesome. smile While he was sitting in that chair waiting for her to text, I was growing and learning and finding myself. Him, not so much.
After awhile, ok it was a long while (lol), I didnt have to give myself that talk. You will get there, sweetie. I just know it.
