Need help detaching

[lost_hope]

Thanks sooo much SFC_Swede! I definitely know I am going to be emotionally run over every time I see him. It's funny you say cake eating bc he bought the house with me essentially to cake eat. He came right out and said wants easy access to his son (which I can't really argue with esp since I don't have family and many friends in this country so really "need" him to a certain extent) and the ability to go stay with his mom whenever he wants (she will be like 7 minutes away from the new house). He gets to be part-time daddy and I get to be a single mom when I never would have purposely chosen that route. (Doesn't change the fact that I am so in love with my son already and of course am soo happy and thankful for his life).

With respect to PPD apparently I am in high risk to get it bc I has a miscarriage last year, have marital problems and financial worries now, and I also have general anxiety that I've never treated with medication before. I am seriously considering preemptively striking and just getting on meds once I give birth. I won't be able to b/feed but at least my son will have the benefit of a happier mother and it may help me in some ways to not be so anxious about my impending and totally unplanned single motherhood.

I am so sorry about your situation, just catching up with your posts. I hope you have a good day and nice weekend and thank you for your kind and thoughtful response.