Am I ready for this?

[reachingHigher]

Keep your chin up, Mtnman.

Have you ever looked at my threads from last fall? The push/pull of attraction and heading towards D. It reminds me a lot of your sitch.

I love this last quote you posted

You are so right. Severing the connection makes the pain intense but then you can start to heal. Keeping the connection open while separating is awful. Then you have the opposite once you start to reconcile. Keeping the separation intact while working on connection. It's crazy, isnt it?

Keep posting.
Keep your heart and head strong.
And this weekend you don't have the boys to distract you or show you their affection so it may be lonely. I'm glad you have some plans with your brother.