Nero - Snodderly has pointed out that with everything that is going on with your life, you are spinning.
I am not going to give you advice, just support. You seem to be finding it all overwhelming. No idea why your thread is locked to you - it isn't to me, as you can see, and you can post elsewhere.
Anyway, it seems like teh world and his wife are resting on your shoulders, and you have wall to wall troubles.
Just want to give you a hug, and say it will pass, it really will, and you will be in a better place, and you will get there faster with a little spade work. Just do something YOU want to do, for YOU. OK?
