Ditto re PTSD. AJ, I'm sorry you didn't get relief from meds. I'm sure hoping they help me, but I admit I'm feeling bad about needing them.
Xh's birthday is tomorrow. You all know by now that I'm a big believer in opening your heart and closing your mind. Our thoughts and experiences, especially bad ones, can sabatoge what we truly feel and want to express. My heart says send birthday wishes, but my head says not to. He won't appreciate it, will think it's a ploy (his word) or an act of pursuit. Then angry feelings got stirred up. He could care less about me, not only did he D me he chose to do it publically, in open court with a self-serving motion. He didn't care about my birthday. So, I had warm thoughts in my heart, but quickly squashed them with my mind. So, do I let my heart or ego guide me?
