Really giving H the space he has asked for. Barely talked to him in the last 2 weeks and when I do (because of the kids or something) he is usually still really bitter. I don't think he has been this angry for this long in quite a while.
I did finally have to tell D16 about the A and boy was he mad. He told D21 and D19 on his terms. A couple of times I thought D16 overheard me or the other kids or someone talking and I realized it would not be good for her to overhear that it should come from one of her parents or both.
She is mad, mad mad at h and now he blames me, of course. He says I just blurted it out which of course he doesn't know because he wasn't there.
He hasn't talked to me again about being "done" but he has told this to D21. It's funny because D21 doesn't want to talk about it but it seems like her and h talk about it all of the time.
D21 and I had a rocky relationship for a while. Her and h became really close and she tends to side with anything h says. Our relationship is much better now but I think she will always see h's side in everything. Although I did tell her that I thought h was mlc and she said "yeah you know I thought that he might be too".
So who knows. I just know I'm tired of being blamed for his unhappiness and his A. I'm tired of hearing how horrible of a person I have been for 26 years of marriage. I'm thinking why did we have 3 kids then?
I did start going back to church with my neighbor. I had stopped going years ago, mainly because I was always busy running the kids to games or out of town. I have to admit that I was very angry at what was happening to me. I guess now I'm thinking I have to get back to the things that I have always believed in and hopefully he will help steer me in the right direction.
M 48 H 50 M 25 T 27 D 20,18,15 6/11 H filed 3/12 H dropped 4/12 H moved out
