Well....the St Johns Wort that i have been taking DOES seem to be making a difference. I am still very sad....but detaching. My moods seem more stable, and i haven't cried at all...only welled up with tears once or twice. That is a big improvement for me.

I am still procrastinating over discussing finances with my W. Speaking of which - W is being a little friendlier too.

I think that she has noticed that i am doing my best to keep my distance because she told me last night that..."you are allowed to touch me you know. I won't self combust." (i think that she was a little drunk, though i can't be sure)

The reality is, that i want to do more than just touch her. How can i strike a balance with this that won't see me back on the rollercoaster?


Me: 49
W: 47
M: 19 T: 25
Son:19
Dau:13
Son:6
BD: Aug: 2012
Separated - same house: May, 2013
Ultimatum to move out: Dec 2013
W looking to move out: January 2014
Dau says go, I move out: June 2014