I apologize of there was an accusatory tone there - I know you weren't trying to nail me. I just never know if what I am saying or thinking makes sense or of it is just me making foolish wishes or daydreaming.
I think you are quite right about the intersection point between depression and MLC. I am by no means an expert.....let me say that again: I am by no means an expert, but I see how the two things can live in unison and feed off of one another. I have had my personal struggles with depression over the years and it really was a catalyst for me bottoming out after BD. XW had been treated for depression for years, long before I knew her, and quit cold turkey after BD and has been off of antidepressants ever since. She talked about it when she was back at the house but I never, NEVER questioned her choice to go off of them....I just listened and tried to support even though I wasn't sure it was the best idea at the time. And, honestly bug, I think that is why I look at MLC when some interest as well.
Unlike when I first arrived here, however, I don't use that as an excuse to not work on me. Likewise, as I have said before, I know there is nothing I can do about it. There is nothing I can do to help.
I sincerely am trying to move forward - and I have made some decent (although "baby") steps. I just struggle with kicking her out of my heart. It's a tough thing to do!
