lost and alone now

[kelela]

No my boys are OK with it I sorta told them there is a chance that daddy my move out. And what is going on is not their fault. The situation is between me and H and we both love them with all of our hearts and no matter what happens between me and H we both will always be there for them both. And I told them if they have any questions at all they can always come to either one of us and we will be honest with them about everything. My oldest had asked if he could sometimes stay with H and then stay with me I told him that is OK with me what every he wants to do i will respect what he wants to do. He is old enough to make his own decisions I'm not going to keep them away from H. I'm still not ready to give up just yet and you are right if he is not here it will give me time to really think about what my next move will be. I know he won't be home this weekend so this break will give me sometime to think about my next step. I'm still on this roller coaster ride. Oh I have many ppl at work trying to push the management to have me join the morning team. I really hope that they will have me move to a different team I think I maybe much more happier to join the morning team then maybe after I get off I can try to find a second job. I know I will have to get another job so I'll be able to support my family without H. Well I'll stop here for now I'll keep you posted on The days, weeks, monthes and years to come. Thank you for being there for m