This morning was met with H's usual, I work double shift today great workaholic mood.
I'm convinced he is dabbling in trying to do it all. Work, chores, sleep when he can, and I am in there also as he trys to keep me content so I don't change up anything on him. This is not a M, it's a rotation of what-to-do to make the day go right. Neeext... W needs, kiss on cheek, clean house, hug, cheeeck
I'm detaching everyday and expecting little, while on guard for what may come up.
I really think he has this idea that we are good and life can be just like this forever. Today he brought up working in Vegas again, ( we were suppose to move there pre MLC) after MLC it was, you go I'll travel to and from for work during the seasons, and I wasn't having it. Today I was like sure, lets talk about it, I'll go, you stay, hum we'll see how far my willingness takes me.
Either way, I am working on what I am going to do for me. Such a hard road I travel to let him go, and he's still here getting closer, and I just want to WAW. Nero, I know you don't like hearing that, I'm not, it's just always on my options list.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
