Thanks UW, it means a lot that you are proud of me and support me in all I do - even when I get ahead of myself, which I tend to do often lol!
Linda, I will have to look up that blog. I envisioned a more gradual awakening or lifting of the fog, but I would think everyone is different.
I know people have different opinions about journaling, but I really think it has helped me to not only release my negative emotions, but also to look back and see what was going on and how I was feeling at any given point in time.
Reading last summers' entries - wow - I don't think I realized how bad things were at the time. They were just better compared to bomb drop time.
So comparing things within a year's time, I do see progress, do see him coming closer to his home and family, farther away from her.
I'm sure he does not remember a lot of the events over the past year and a half.
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H came home around midnight last night. I was actually up for once, stayed up to watch "Silver Linings Playbook". So good!
H was friendly, and chatted a bit. Said he had a good time. He has said in the past that he is lonely, misses having friends. So I think it was good for him to go out with a buddy.
Today, H went to a resort about an hour and a half away in another state. Before I left for yoga yesterday, H says that they are playing 36 holes of holf today. And that he's taking his swim trunks to go in the pool a bit afterwards. And that they will probably get something to eat after that. He'll be home some time tonight. I just feel like the whole thing reeks of FT.
I decided to take today and do something really fun with the boys. So we went to the zoo and had a great time. We went early, no crowds, and the weather was perfect.
H was pretty good this morning before he left, but then could not look me in the eye when saying good bye. He did hug and kiss the boys goodbye.
I actually went out on a limb a bit and complimented H on his outfit today - told him that it looked nice. He seemed surprised, but also pleased. He then went on to talk about that he regrets getting rid of all of his bigger sized shorts last year when he lost a ton of weight. Joked that he has two options at this point - lose weight or buy some shorts. He said he wants to buy some shorts.
So yes T^2, I've been making some notations on my clipboard, while sipping on a beaker full of wine Interesting stuff.
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
