I just learned today the H had told the boys that we maybe separating and he maybe moving out but he never told them when this will be. Now I'm really starting to go to the low emotions once again. I should have known it is coming soon when he does move out for good. I don't know if I will be strong enough to do it its been 13 years since I have been on my own but 13 years ago I didn't have two boys to take care of. I'm really starting to get really scared and I'm about to panic and I know when H is around I need to be Happy even tho I will be dying in side. And I know that affairs never do last but some times they do. I'm trying really hard to breath here; will I'm going to get off and spend some time with my boys before I have to go to bed I have a 9 hour shift tomorrow.
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
