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Journaling: Had a good time at the meeting last night. I can still be a little awkward around people, but I'm getting better and I like everyone involved with the organization. The organization is really picking up and is about to transition from a purely volunteer-driven organization to a funded organization with employees. I haven't told the director about my interview yet, but she knows I am looking for work out of town. I would hate to leave them at this point, but I don't think they would be able to pay me as an employee what I need for quite a long while, if ever.
While I am excited about my interview, I'm not crazy about the position itself. Still, I would be making a great deal more money, I would be back in my sector, and I believe I would have a path to advance (going to ask about this at the interview), so I am going to pursue it to my utmost.
I wish I could tell the W about it. She wanted me so much to find a better job while we were together. Both for my happiness and for our financial health. I just couldn't do it at the time; I was too depressed and I couldn't leave my parents in the situation they were in. Now both those circumstances are different. My W & I had talked about me looking for work with this organization in this town, too. A few weeks ago, they had an open position that was perfect for her background and what she wanted to do, but I couldn't contact her to tell her about it because of the damn TRO. Everywhere I turn, it's reminders of what could have been if things were just slightly different.
I think I dreamed about her again last night. Wish she were in my arms so bad. The thought of her with somebody else guts me.
I have therapy tonight and some work scheduled with the director of my non-profit tomorrow afternoon. Trying to get some personal projects done this weekend too. Scrambling to find an interview outfit that isn't too expensive (I still have another 15-25 pounds to lose) and still looks good.
