This version of her that I see before me is just a cheap facsimile of the woman I fell in love with. At first glance she looks the same as the original, but upon closer inspection it’s quite clear that she isn’t.
The irony is that I convinced her of the same. That I had changed into someone else and the me she fell in love with was never coming back. I convinced her of that and she allowed herself to be convinced of that. The difference is, the real me was trapped inside and wanted out, it just took something as ground shaking as the BD to make it happen.
Now, I’m not absolving my responsibility in creating who she is today, I’m just acknowledging what reality is: she isn’t somebody who I can be with. Not like this.
You sum up how I feel about my wife really well in this quote!
The detaching part has so many challenges, especially when children are involved.
Learning from this thread. Keep up the great work!
H 37 WAW 32 S 4 (Autistic) S 2 Together 11 years Married 6 Bombshell Dec 1 2012 House sold, flying solo June 1 2013.
