Circles no more

[shouldistillhope]

Good morning everyone,

I had an interesting conversation with STBXW yesterday after work.

We had to meet at the realtor to sign papers since our house is finally going on the market.

After we were done, we started talking in the parking lot about a few final details we needed to do to finish up the remodel.

I am not sure how it came up, but she mentioned how badly she wanted to move to the city where i am currently staying because her friend has been asking her what she is supposed to tell people when they ask her why we are getting divorced. W says she is sick of everyone not minding their own business and she is sick of the rumors.

So i brought up the fact that i have had people call me up and start telling me that they had heard the reason she filed for D was because she was embarrassed by my career.

She looked me in the eyes and said "if that is what you honestly believe, then this divorce is definitely the right decision."

I stood there stunned and she opened the door to her car. I opened the passenger side and asked said "I don't think i heard you" She then repeated it to me. "if you believe that, then this is definitely the right decision."

I looked at her and finally said, "Are you trying to tell me that you don't think this is the right thing to do?"

She said "no, i am happy, i no longer have any stress."

I know for a fact that she is stressed to the max because she still texts me telling me how stressed out she is.

I am not sure she believes she made the right choice, but i can't do anything right now about it because it will seem controlling to her.

I think maybe she is surprised and disappointed that i am not calling her all the time begging her to come back. (mind reading maybe)

I also feel that by me not begging, she is getting angry at me for not giving her a reason to leave anymore. D is final tomorrow and i know it's too late, but i just wanted to share last evening's events.