I know everything about you You know everything about me We know everything about us
I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave But I know I try Are you gonna leave me now? Can't you be believing now?
This is from a song I love but haven't heard in a while, when this part played tonight in my car I got goose bumps remembering it is was my biggest fear, him leaving.
It's like a memory feeling as if we knew everything about each other, feeling as if we were an us, and fearing him leaving!
Tonight as he left for work he kissed my cheek, I had no response, he kissed my neck 3xs and said I should be " taking care of you". I think he feels he can't do much as a human man, but if he at least works, does chores, and attempts to ML, I should at least be content.
I think he doesn't want me to change a thing about our R, so he tries to keep me needing for very little. That is how he values himself, but I want everything he can't give me, that's were "he" changed our R.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
